Well this has been a hard week I’ve been to the hospital to visit my grandpa and he has gotten worse so they moved him to hospice me and my ex broke up and I’m beyond done with him now and come to find out a good friend of mine has a crush on me…coincidence I’ve had a crush on him too were gonna talk about “us” on Thursday I couldn’t imagine having sex with him like I did my ex I hope we wouldn’t do that but idk I like him alot but he knows I’m not completely over my Ex yet he understands

It seems like everyone around me wants to hurt me. My parents ignore me and always hear what I have to say but let it go in one ear and out the other and my boyfriend now ex boyfriend smoked weed behind my back and I can’t trust him anymore and everyone knows a good relationship is built on trust well I have no more so we bettered ourselves well I bettered myself and became single. We almost made it to valentines day….whoop tee friggin do….my life is shit right now. Damn I wanna go away…far away and never return. Too bad this is reality and not my fantasy.

Why does it seem like after everything goes great it ends up shitty again???? My boyfriend has been lying to me for a while now and idk what to do when we hangout this weekend I’m going to test him and give him a rude awakening about loosing me ohh yeah his mom chewed me out on the phone saying how he has been crying every night because of me… Fml

I’m in love and it’s hard not to show it I love u and I always will

Nobody Can hold me back from what I wanna do

My bestfriend is shoved so far up her boyfriends ass she never treats me the same. Yes I understand how that goes cause I did that to her with my ex but she has done it to me way worse and plenty more times I swear. It’s kind of like being at home when me and my boyfriend are with them. We have the same routine every weekend go hangout at someone’s house them two argue me and my boyfriend in his room them two in her boyfriends room then we all make love (have sex but were in love so it’s making love and it’s respectful) we go back to her house eat then sit in the tub then go to bed..it’s the same every weekend. I mean don’t get me wrong I love it but she is bipolar no lie if I’m kissn my boyfriend while she is snuggling up to hers she gets mad at me then when my boyfriend who goes to another school while my bestfriend and her boyfriend who is like my brother and she is like my sister andi go to the same school and I only see him on weekends but trust me I cherish every moment we have together. Idk i guess I’m hurt by her alot and idk what to tell her I cNt tell her the truth bc she will get mad at me then. I need prayer and my boyfriend and my bestfriend back.

My family life sucks not as bad as my boyfriends but it’s still pretty bad I cried for the first time in a while today :( I had bad thoughts but no worries I could never ever hurt myself. I hated the feeling of sadness today…my mom and I constantly argue…my dad guilt trips me and idk what else could go wrong.